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str8 from the bedroom

by Crush Material

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1.
You're leavin' Are you leavin'? I guess that you're tryin' And are you happy? Are you happy? You're so happy it hurts, the state I'm in But I won't forget No, I won't forget And now I'm cryin' Oh, I'm cryin' I haven't cried in such a long long time But you were by me my whole life
2.
What is up with this thing called yearning? Do you want someone specific or anybody? Do you have no one and want someone? Do you have no one and just want someone? And what is up with this concept "single"? As if you ever could be just one little single thing Why do they ask us to be so simple? Why do they tell us that we're so simple? Is there a tie we have between us or is it just me? I'm kinda sensing something special but it might just be me Just me, not you Do you feel this too? Is it me and you? Just me and you Maybe there's part of me that's yearning Do I have someone I need or just anybody? Do I have no one and want someone? Do I have no one and just want someone? Yeah I guess you could call me "single" But I'm more than just lonely, there's many parts of me Sometimes I'm full of worlds and people Maybe I wish you were one of those people Is there a tie we have between us or is it just me? I'm kinda sensing something special but it might not be true Just me, not you Do you feel it too? Just me, not you! Is it me and you? Just me, yeah
3.
Lipstick on your eyelids cause you wanted it to stay Cause you wanted it to stay the whole night Lipstick on your eyelids like you wanted to believe Like you wanted to believe it would last forever Pink strip on your eyelids cause you wanted them to stay Yeah you wanted them to stay the whole night Got a pink strip on your eyelids cause you wanted to believe That they'd show up eventually but they didn't ever Oh no, oh no Tell me you want to Say that you want to go Oh no Don't tell me you want to Say that you want to go Oh, no Tell me you want to Say what you wanted before Oh no Tell me you want to, tell me you wanted more One eye on the stage and one eye dancing on the floor Do you wonder who it is I'm waiting for? You're just far away enough to be inconvenient Would you really go out of your way to come see me? Oh no, oh no! Tell me you want to say that you want to go Say that you want to Say that you want to go Oh, no Don't tell me you want to Say that you want to go Oh, no! Don't tell me you want to Say but you never show
4.
just cuz 05:50
am I texting you too much? or are you just not around as much? We’ve been talking less and less it’s messing me up Infatuation's like a drug an upper that I can’t give up but then suddenly I don’t see you enough You don’t owe me anything but I’m still bummed out when you don’t text me You don’t owe me anything And maybe i’m starting to think that Just cuz you invite me to parties doesn't mean you wanna hang with me Just one-on-one it seems to be Not so fun that you're free And just cuz you've been giving me heartache Doesn't mean I matter much to you Even if I want you to But I don't think you do Trying to divest from this crush so I don’t feel so crush crush crushed After lowered expectations this is enough taking this arm's length with a grin before disappointment does me in Try to be grateful for any spot of recognition just cause you invite me to parties doesn’t mean you’re interested in me like I thought or hoped you’d be want what I’m wanting just cause you’re giving me heartache doesn’t mean I mean too much to you but even then I wish it’s true but even then I tell you just cause I invite you to my place doesn’t mean I want more than your time but you’re so busy that perhaps That’s too much to ask Seems like we’ve got lots in common I wanted to talk more if you were free That’s all I was wondering But if not I’ve gotta be Fine with that and cool with that and understand we won't be that Take it slow I'm here to show if needs be I can let you go And I don’t wanna push you more I’ll tend to my heart, it’s sore But you don’t have to know that so I’ll keep it to this song I sing for you
5.
Here I am on the other side You’re losing me and I’ve lost my stride Now I’ve lived long enough to become the adversary in my old songs Here I am on the other side You're wanting me, and I wanna die You want that too but you want me more but I'm afraid, I can’t be yours Do you relate to me circa 2019 While you mourn me in 2023 Either way, I promise you’re not missing as much as you think I love singing these songs but it feels so wrong Cause I've led you on walks I can’t walk and the me you longed for was just really not me at all So sorry you had to fall Here I am on the other side So-called adult, so hating life I used to judge my teachers hard Now I judge me in each regard And here we are tangled up inside, Trying to extricate our lives from an attachment gone so young I can count on my hands all the times I saw you This past year I tried to be someone so cool who you could live vicariously through tried going out for drinks and dates But I hate this place! I woke up angry and fully out of time cause the world a fraud but like, so am I lacking all the drive for any part of being alive I feel so dead inside I broke your heart then I broke my leg such funny timing in the end I don’t respect what I have said I can’t stand by, I’ll stay in bed sorry I fled Breaking my leg after breaking hearts Think I deserved to fall apart And when you see me next you’ll say I think we could all just use a break We all will get our break

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'str8 from the bedroom' is a collection of demos that Crush Material's guitarist and lead singer Stevie recorded on Garageband in their bedroom between 2019 and 2023.

We plan on re-recording most of these songs in a more official capacity sometime down the line but making an ~official album~ takes a while and we wanted to let you in on what we've been working on in the meantime! Pls enjoy :~)

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released September 1, 2023

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